(VERY BAD LANUAGE.....)

BEFORE YOU READ: IM REALLY TRULY GRATEFUL TO THE FRIENDS WHO HAVE STUCK BY ME THIS YEAR IVE BEEN ON..I TRULY APPRECIATE IT..I REALLY DO xxx
IF YOUR UPSET WITH ME I UNDERSTAND...I JUST WANT THE TRUTH..I DONT WANT HATRED BEHIND FAKE HAPPINESS TOWARDS ME...AND AGAIN IM SORRY FOR THE THINGS THAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ...

you might be thinking oh hear she goes again...well guess fucking what..im a 17 girl whos abit fucked up in the head because shes seen shit and has been through shit that seriously fucks you up in the head...and ya know what i dont give a fuck..there are many people like me, who have regrets and wishes that they could change something..or everything...
ive forgiven my self for all the mistakes in my past ive made..ive put all that behind me.. but ya know, maybe im still a child in my head..thats why im always acting childish..but im not..im thinking more clearly then ever...judge me as you wish..but i wont ever judge you for who you are...

i know i was supposed to be happy.


im trying to change and this isnt meant to be offensive to anyone..
just tell me what you think about me n what needs improving.

Right...ive been very in active recently and theres many a reason..which i cant be arsed to explain, when i come back i get the cold shoulder from a few people...what-the-fuck-have-i-done-?.com

i do care about my friends! (you guys!) I REALLY DO!

i fucking hate it when someone wont tell me whats wrong with them as when its me their pissed at..i know im shit at keeping up to date with things and seeing if everyones okay and seeing how everyones improving ..im sorry about that... which ive noticed peeps are only faving or not faving at all...is my artwork going bad? is it to get back at me? please tell me

im currently working on requests, whilst playing on gears of war and reading skulduggery pleasant. And being obsessed with death note.

i am fucking annoyed with life as it is and with myself..i cant find a bastarding job. which i really need to help digi out! ive lost the ability to draw, which i have requests to do! and all in all, i feel distant from most my friends...coz im not on and dont talk to you doesnt mean ive fallen out with you! ill try and get online to talk, but i aint making promises, though ill be on alot nah

IM SORRY FOR THIS BAD RANT AND THE THINGS IVE SAID ARE QUITE HURTFUL..BUT IM ANGRY, AND IM ANGRY, I START TO SPEAK MY MIND...